Update Pics

Well here is this weeks picture.


I honestly don't expect to see any more changes. I was kinda disappointed in these pics, but realized that the "tan" from the testing was gone, and so things just don't look as good. My hubby thinks I look a little leaner. I think the suit is not one I will do pics or practice posing in again. Though, it worked great for my VPX photo shoot. I am on the right.

I am struggling to keep my weight at 120. I step on the scale only for the updates. And was a little upset that my weight first thing in the am was 118lbs. So, I weighed again after I ate breakfast and it went up to 120, then 121 by the evening! The same thing this am. I wanted to see if I really was 118, and stepped on the scale first thing in the am and yes, I was 118lb. Then this afternoon I weighed 121lbs!

Let this be a lesson to you all. Stay away from the scale! Go by your clothing and how you look. Normally I forget that we even have a scale, but I really wanted to compete above 120lbs - being full and tight! So, I am goofing off by getting on the scale and risking playing head games with myself!

I hope to maintain the look right now and then "blow it up" for the stage. My body is a lot different than other competitors. This is a big challenge for me. A struggle that is frustrating at times. I feel uncomfortable, "bigger" and "thicker". But know that I look so much healthier and competitive.

This week not only do I need to train hard so that I can continue to grow, but I need to practice, practice, practice posing so that it is second nature - natural onstage!